Here I Am… Again!

The last three weeks of my race, the Lord started telling me what His next steps were for me.. He began to welcome me into His plan and naturally, I told Him He’s crazy.

You see, there’s been multiple conversations that I’ve had with The Lord where He’s welcoming me in on His plans for me and I just can’t see how it’s possible so I end up telling Him, “You’re crazy but okay.”

Am I proud of calling Him crazy? Absolutely not. But I am a firm believer in being direct and unfiltered in my relationship with Him. So when I think something is just insane, I tell Him. When I don’t like what He’s saying, I tell Him. When I am overwhelmed by His goodness and mercy, I tell Him.

That’s not the point of this blog but I encourage you to take a moment to meditate on that. There’s something profound about communicating that clearly with Him and allowing Him to, in-turn, communicate that clearly with you. It creates a space for open conversation.

Anyways, I was sitting at the kitchen table in Jefferys Bay, South Africa, listening to a new song that came out by one of my favorite worship bands. I was spending some time with the Lord, reflecting on all the ways He’s been so good to me over the past 11 months and even my whole life. Then I heard Him speak, “This is what my next steps are for you.”

To be completely honest, I didn’t like what He said. I was actually a little frustrated with what He said and I wrestled with Him for three weeks about it.

But over those three weeks, He took us to Stellenbosch University where we connected with the most incredible community. Through their kindness, encouragement, and deep hunger for the Lord, He opened my mind and softened my heart to relieve the plans He’s placed before me.

During that time, the Lord began to speak (deeply and profoundly) into my identity. It turns out, the reason I wanted to say no to His call was because I didn’t see myself fit for it. I doubted myself and I doubted who He created me to be. It was an attack from the enemy that the Lord gently yet firmly held my hand through and walked me back into the victory He’s already won and declared over me and my life.

After this breakthrough, something the Lord began to do was give me hugs through images or His Spirit. I would randomly get this thought of the Lord hugging me or I would physically feel this peaceful & warm energy surrounding my heart (and by randomly, I mean completely intentional and timely on His part). Sounds crazy but actually it’s not at all crazy. I mean, think about it. Why wouldn’t the good Father who created me not hug me? It’s in His character to love me that way. It’s actually in His character to love me very intentionally because He knows His daughter and He knows how I need and deserve to be loved.

During final debrief, I asked the Lord to speak to me. I asked Him if He had anything He wanted to say to me or any images/visions He wanted to give me… and He did. (Spoiler: He always has something to say or give. Give Him the time and space to speak!)

I began to receive this image of Him reaching down to hug me. He then stood up, reached for my hand, and began to lead me forward. I couldn’t see past His shoulder. All I could see was His tight grip on my hand leading me forward into this next chapter.

Talk about a divine encounter with the Spirit, AMEN!

SO THE EXCITING NEWS I HAVE FOR YOU IS THAT…

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From January 16th – April 22nd I will be leading a semesters team to South Africa, Lesotho, and eSwatini!!!!!!

I’m beyond excited to follow where the Lord is leading me in this next season! I’m even more excited to be going back to South Africa for a period of time (my favorite place everrrrr)!! On top of that, I’m even more excited to be going alongside this Semesters team to serve and encourage them as they step into this wild journey with The Lord.

The Lord has been so good to me and I am honored that He’s called me to prophecy His goodness to the ends of the Earth for the rest of my life.

FUNDRAISING BREAKDOWN

My goal is to raise $3,000 to cover the cost of all transportation, all lodging, and all food costs.

While I am looking for people to partner with financially, I want to ask everyone to partner with me in prayer again as I go back out on the field. To everyone who devoted time from their days to pray over me and my squad last year, I can’t thank you enough. I couldn’t even begin to express the impact your daily prayers for us made. Now, you have a chance to do it again! This group of 18-22 year old adults need prayer partners and I need prayer partners. The enemy is out to steal, kill, & destroy the mana the Lord is placing before us in this upcoming season. Your commitment to praying over us daily helps us combat the spiritual battles we face. I don’t anticipate this season being easy but I do anticipate The Lord showing up in incredible ways because He is faithful to show up every single time!

For those wondering, this is not a paid position. I am a full time missionary and I receive my rewards Heaven, amen & amen!! 🙂

If you’re feeling the Lord calling you to give, you can donate directly to my blog site OR you can reach out to me for other options if needed. My email is [email protected].

Thank you in advance for all the love, support, and prayers as I follow where The Lord leads. I hope this is an encouragement to you as it is for me!

HERE I AM, LORD! SEND ME!!!!